Escalation

We heard the heartbeat together and then I had not heard from her for a week...so i called and I began to give her a barrage of jabs that left my mouth bitter...I didnt sleep at all since then...she tore into me about every little thing....I will write more but i have serious work to do.

I love this woman and it might scare her.

   I will start somewhere in the middle and this post will not be very elaborate because I still have to stay up all night cleaning because the woman I love is suffering because her cat is suffering and paranoid and she loves that cat because he needs her. 
   I know what I need to do and other people do as well I just continue to get curve balls from her sisters and mother.  I am not losing my mind I am finding myself.  Its hard to exist when you want something so bad and the only thing in your way is yourself your past and your lust for creativity.
  I am not afraid of life, I just wish i could stop time for a week and also make five exact copies of myself or create robots that would do exactly what i say and also superpowers like jedi mind shit and superstrength mind reading and the ability to fly...I'm working on that stuff.